Return of the Lyrics

Thinking can be very unhealthy.

I'm glad that my parents are moving out of here soon. Everytime I'm here, things from the past start to haunt me. Things, and people. Whenever I leave the house, I always double-check how I look. If I run into anyone, I don't want to be wearing one of my old shirts, and unshaved. It's not the best look for me. At the same time, I don't want to run into anyone. The idea of running into an ex...well, I don't even want to think about it.

I don't talk to anyone here. None of the exes, I mean. (I'm sure I've typed that before on here.) However, I do keep up with the "local news." 2 of them are married now. 1 of them has a kid. That really freaks me out. I still think of myself as being young. To think that other people my age are doing this really weirds me out.

It also weirds me out because I could have been stuck in that position. If I had let myself be sucked into the way of life around here, there is a strong chance that I would have been married by now. This small, podunk town has a way of connecting two people and forcing them to believe that most of the world doesn't exist. You only get so many chances to leave and make something of yourself.

Of the people I knew from when I lived here, most of them still live here. Sure, they have jobs, but they don't have a real career. They hang out with the same people. They go to the same places. Nothing has really changed about them.

It reinforces my choice to get out of here. I don't want to run with the same crowd. I want something new as often as possible. I get bored easily with routine events, common places, and even people. It's like a person who does something dangerous just for the adrenaline rush. After a while, it doesn't give you the same rush. So you find a taller cliff, a faster river, or a better airplane.

That's not really a good trait to have, is it? Always looking for the next thing. Never happy with what's in front of you.

Oh well.

"Don't you want to go into the hollow?
I won't go it alone.
Aren't you gonna follow?"

Queens of the Stone Age - Into The Hollow