Up Again

Just another sleepless night. Nothing different, most everything is the same.

I figure I'll pass out soon though. I'm tired, but I don't want to go to sleep. Sounds a bit like my 3-year old nephew. He never wants to go to bed. No matter what rewards you promise him, it isn't enough.

But I'm nearly 20 years older than him. In fact, it really freaks me out that I'll be 23 in less than a month. I had plans laid out for myself, and I'm not reaching my milestones. At the same time, I think that my long-term goals have changed. The things I like to do have changed. There are many different routes I can take, and I trust my decision-making ability.

I would say that if you've hung out with me, you know that I make the right decision 99% of the time. And it's not always the obvious. The very rare times that I make a bad decision are usually the result of a lack of sleep, medication side effects, or just plain absent confusion.

However, I think that if you've ever communicated with me, whether face-to-face or not, you know that I do the right thing. So far, I can only think of one thing that I regret, and even that isn't 100%. I still would have done the same thing, only different. I would change some slight details. So, it isn't that big of a deal. Some people gather regret like its stock is going to shoot straight up.

Currently, I am faced with making another decision. Well, a few, but I'm thinking extremely short-term right now. If I had to assess the risk-reward ratio, I would say it's a low-risk, low-reward kind of thing. I like to gamble, so it's not much of a choice.

And I choose to sleep on it. Just for tonight.