Leaving and Dreaming Again

It's been a few days since I've logged onto MySpace. I deleted that bookmark from my desktop and my laptop. I'm going to phase it out soon enough. I won't delete my account. I'm just going to stop checking it everyday. Maybe I'll slow it down to once a month.

Eh, I got sidetracked by the announcement of Silverlight. It's Microsoft's answer to Adobe Flash. It can be integrated with Visual Basic, and it's compatible with C# and Ruby. I know, nerd-speak. Well, if I'm ever going to make my millions, it's going to happen with me sitting at a computer and creating my ideas. I watched a 20-minute tutorial on it, and I can see why it could be great. Still, messing with Adobe Flash is fairly easy.

I had a dream yesterday that had me thinking. In my dreams, I always know what's going on and who is doing what and where. I am constantly aware of my surroundings. However, someone walked up to me, and I couldn't really figure out who they were. Sort of. I knew about them, including where they are from. I knew what they liked, and why they were in the same location as me. Even the physical details were fairly accurate.. But when I had to think of their name, I couldn't. I knew who it was, but I didn't. Does that make sense? I knew who they represented, but I couldn't be 100% sure. Just 90% sure. I think that's the best way to put it.

But then I think about the "why" and "what" of dreaming. Most of my dreams have some connection to the real world. Maybe I saw someone a few days ago, or I heard something. There's a reason for every detail of my dream.

Some people suggest that dreams are your subconscious in full control. The feelings that you suppress or ignore are forced into your dreams. It explains the dreams where I hang out with someone I haven't spoken to in quite a while. I don't spend my day missing them, but they are still part of my subconscious. Any regrets that you want to forget can easily find their way into your dreams.

I'm willing to accept that your subconscious affects your dreams, but I don't think that is the only component. I would say that half of my dreams are lucid dreams. So while my subconscious picks the setting, (who, where, when, and why), I choose what I do. Sometimes I'll follow along and see where things go, while other times I'll do my own thing and ignore certain details.

Well, I followed along in that dream. I had to introduce them, but I couldn't figure out their name, even though I knew who they were. It means one or more of the following:

• I didn't want to admit who they were.
• I didn't understand the situation.
• I wanted to follow along, but I was doing something wrong.
• I was deceived by the person in question and realized it.
• I was too busy looking ahead.

The weirdest thing is that the moment I couldn't remember their name, I had an out-of-body experience. I was standing behind myself, and everything else was black and foggy. I guess that represented my mind at that time. When the mental timer went off and I still couldn't remember, I re-entered myself. The person I couldn't figure out looked at me as though I were the dumbest person alive. And I felt bad.

Yes, I can remember my dreams with that much detail. In fact, I could go on about it, but it's nearly 6AM. I don't like to spend more than an hour on analyzing a dream.